The weekend......

What a beautiful day today is. The sun is shining, my girlfriend's parents came over and cooked us all a beautiful meal..... it's just all fallen into place nicely today. Life is good.

This time last year, today would have driven me crazy. I woke up to my neighbours arguing, add to that a bit of a hangover from last night's party, and the fact that it has just took me almost twenty minutes to log in here due to me forgetting my password(!), i wouldn't have handled this all too well. But today, nothing is a problem, it is all running beautifully. Nothing happens truly by accident.

I've also realised something quite important. If i am completely honest, for a long time now i have been waiting to be enlightened. Why wait? Now is all we have, all we have ever had, and all we ever will have. Be here now. Feel the glow of life run through every part of my body; here. Now. Ken Wilber likens it to the ocean. We all have our ways that we think will bring us enlightenment (meditation, yoga, and many other disciplines), and these are all like waves on the ocean. Some bigger than others, but all are made of water, the essence of which is wetness. No wave is wetter than the other. The waves just need to realise that they are all made up of the same thing.

And also, i was listening to Eckhart Tolle in the car on my way to the shops, and he said something that just made me smile ear to ear. He said that in life, we are like a candle in the middle of a room. Sometimes lit (happy), and sometimes we are not lit at all (unhappy). So it is very important to the room that the candle be lit, so it is light. But when you realise who you truly are, and you abide in the self completely (enlightened), it opens the curtains and floods the room with light, so whether the candle is lit or not makes little difference, because there is light everywhere. The candle can be lit or not, and it just does not matter. Nothing matters.

I find that so beautiful. I admit that i still have things to do. I have some blockages to remove before i can be truly free of myself, and just flow through life with love, peace, and serenity; but there is no way i can say that there are never times when i feel so full of love that it makes me want to cry. I know truly that i have had many Satori experiences. For those unfamiliar with Satori, it is an eastern expression for little sudden glimpses of enlightenment, tasters if you will. And they are just pure bliss, love and beauty.

I had one last night. Not long after my good, good friend announced that his wife is pregnant with a little girl. It filled me with joy, and i hugged them both so hard because something spoke to my heart in that moment and without words assured me that life is truly okay, and we are all safe from whatever we think will hurt us. Because nothing can. We are perfect; invincible.

I have had such an amazing weekend. Perhaps one of the best ever. And i hope everyone else has too, including you. I love you so much. Know this, for it is true.

Namaste.