Campfire

June 23 - Laredo, US/Mexico
Journal Entry 2 - "Campfire"

It is hot today, hotter than i can remember, a time for fire and light. This is the beginning....

Welcome to your life, you better wtach your steps,
Or they could turn to fire that could sear through your shoes
through your feet, move up your legs and eat away your heart
until you walk a path with love.
Then you could be happy and your feet and hands and head and heart will
get along comfortably, and you might even breathe easily.

Albeit obvious,
we hardly seek, but hope to find you there
(if we don't speak, no-one can lend an ear)
(we'll never die, we'll merely disappear)

Makes no difference how hard you try, for any period of time or length of distance
under any pressure, in any environment,
walk your path, but man you better watch your steps
they'll burst into flames if you don't pay the ground just a bit of respect
and walk your path with love
and thank the air above.

With anyone, with anything, or underneath a budding tree
no matter how much you've thought
or how much you've grown
or how much you've learned,
or how much you think you know,
or how much you've grieved,
or you've forgiven,
or how much you love,

You never know what tomorrow will bring.


Soon i will be off, sailing southeast into the Caribbean.

You Are Born Today

Okay, i have decided in light of recent events, and a sudden desire to, that i am going to post one song each day from an album that means alot to me. I know it seems quite a "cheesey" thing to do, posting song lyrics. But i see these songs not just as words just thrown onto paper, but meaningful verses that i wouldn't just type out onto the internet if i didn't think they wouldn't resonate with people. Their deeper meaning is hidden only by their simplicity. Plus the album they are from is one of the greatest albums of modern times, in my opinion at least.

I hope that you enjoy them at least half as much as i do. I'm putting these here so i can read them without having to refer to the booklet all the time! I also thought that certain people might enjoy them. The album is in a journal form, the actual lyrics sung in the song will be obvious.

Okay, because the album has an intro track, i shall post that along with the first "proper" track. Here goes....


June 22 - Somewhere in the desert.
Journal entry 1 - "Summer Solstice"

I can feel it in the air, i know that my time is approaching. The only caertainty i feel is the one for the memories i will gain in the coming months. I pray that i can grow from this experience....

I am the blade of grass
trembling in the breeze
affected by surroundings.

I am the lava
whose path nothing can stop
changing the land for better or for worse.

i am the forest
The one being cut down to size
Only the owls know the secrets that i keep.

I am the sail
the one standing in awe of the wind
Amazed by the great lengths it carries me.

I am a student
The one with an eager mind
I have the most left to learn.

All i see is white.

I can honestly say i haven't felt this way in years. It's as if i was born today, born to set sail the prairie.....

The light......

I stumbled across a website earlier where a lady had written her own simplified synopsis of what she thinks a course in miracles is all "about". I printed this off and i keep it in my pocket to read, because i thinks she puts it beautifully. In the past couple of days, through times when i felt daunted or frustrated by my progress, reading this has put me right back on the path, and shone a beautiful light in front of me......

God is.

God is Mind. God is Spirit. God is Reality.

The experience of God is eternal unity, deep peace and boundless joy. In God, being and experiencing are the same thing.

A Part of God’s Mind has decided not to be God. This is not possible, yet it can be believed. To make it believable, and attesting to the power of this Part of God’s Mind, a physical universe of time and space, full of diverse things, beings and identities seemed to come into being. None of this is real, but through the denial of Reality it is experienced as real.

To God, this is never real. It is a wisp of a thought that has come and gone, in laughter. How could a Part of God not be God?

However, to this Part in all of its many parts, it is very real and serious and heavy. You experience yourself as a part of this Part of God. You live a life separate -- from God, and everything in the world. You are born only to suffer and to die. Because you have chosen not to be whole, you are forever seeking for love and peace and happiness in various forms. You never find it, always having to move on to something else. Being everything God is not, this world is hell. Yet you love it because you made it and it is a part of you.

Deep, deep down you feel you have attacked God and you feel guilty. Because you attack, you expect God to attack you back and punish you. You fear God because of this. You cling to your guilt – partly to punish yourself in the hopes that this will mitigate God’s punishment; partly because your guilt goes hand-in-hand with the world you made as “proof” that you have overcome God.

To maintain your illusion of separation from God, you deny it by projecting it outward so that it seems to have made you. Instead of you rejecting God, it seems God has rejected you. Instead of you having made attack, it seems the world attacks you. Instead of you being guilty, it seems the world is a “sinful” place. Yet you have done all of this. This is not cause for guilt, for it is not real. But its very unreality does call for correction. And the Correction is always with you.

God is still in your mind, because you are still in God’s Mind. This part of your mind always calls to you to return to your natural awareness of Oneness. Only by heeding this Call will you feel whole again. But to do this you have to let go of what you have made to take God’s place and welcome another experience in its place.

The physical world you made is in fact neutral. It is a mirror that reflects back to you what you believe about yourself. It can reflect attack, guilt and fear; or oneness and love. What it shows you depends on which part of your mind you choose to listen to: The part that does not want to be Part of God; or the one that calls you to be One with God again.

Everyone will eventually choose to be One with God again. The only question is: When? How long do you want to be in pain? There are many means for unlearning all the illusions you have taught yourself about yourself, but they all lead to the same experience of Oneness. A Course in Miracles is a shortcut. It uses the experiences of the miracle, the holy instant and the holy relationship to save time. The Course emphasizes experiencing Oneness over accepting a theology, though the theology is necessary as a context for the experience.

Your individual body, personality and behavior do not matter. These are the illusion. It is the Oneness beyond these illusions that is real. Forgiveness recognizes that God is unchanged by any of your illusions. And as you choose forgiveness and allow yourself to experience Oneness more and more, the world will come to reflect God’s love back to you. From there, transition to Heaven, where the awareness of Oneness is all there is, is made easier."

I absolutely love it, and i just wanted to share it with you all. Let me know what you think!

The return.....

Wow, i haven't updated this in a while. There's nothing new to report as such, nothing material anyway, except perhaps for me and my girlfriend have invited a friend to come and live with us for a couple of weeks. He found himself at a loose end between the house he just left and the house he is moving into at the end of the month. So we took him under our wings! It should be a gret experience, he's a lovely guy.

Well, the past two weeks have been interesting. I have not been keeping to my meditation routine as much as i would have liked to, although it is picking up as of late. I am also noticing that i am staying present during work alot more than i ever used to. I no longer find myself lost in thoughts and worries hour after hour. It's nice to be able to get on with my job, and just be doing that and that alone. In that moment. It's beautiful. If something has gone wrong, it has simply gone wrong then something has been done about it with a clear mind free of any anger, frustration or worry. For the most part at least! I can't say i haven't had my moments.....

My mother has seemed alot better these past few days. She has had her breast removed entirely, and apparently the cancer has gone into remission. She has some chemotherapy sessions remaining, just to make sure, and then she finishes off the treatment with some radiotherapy. She is around some great people, so that makes me feel good.

Apart from these things, there is nothing new to report at all. Suffice to say that i intend to push myself to work harder at sticking to a routine as far as my meditation goes. I know i don't have to, as there is no real perfect way, but i know that i'd like to.

Well, i thank you for reading this. I hope you are well, and that you are having a beautiful day. May it continue to remain so.

Peace and love in abundance.

David x

The weekend......

What a beautiful day today is. The sun is shining, my girlfriend's parents came over and cooked us all a beautiful meal..... it's just all fallen into place nicely today. Life is good.

This time last year, today would have driven me crazy. I woke up to my neighbours arguing, add to that a bit of a hangover from last night's party, and the fact that it has just took me almost twenty minutes to log in here due to me forgetting my password(!), i wouldn't have handled this all too well. But today, nothing is a problem, it is all running beautifully. Nothing happens truly by accident.

I've also realised something quite important. If i am completely honest, for a long time now i have been waiting to be enlightened. Why wait? Now is all we have, all we have ever had, and all we ever will have. Be here now. Feel the glow of life run through every part of my body; here. Now. Ken Wilber likens it to the ocean. We all have our ways that we think will bring us enlightenment (meditation, yoga, and many other disciplines), and these are all like waves on the ocean. Some bigger than others, but all are made of water, the essence of which is wetness. No wave is wetter than the other. The waves just need to realise that they are all made up of the same thing.

And also, i was listening to Eckhart Tolle in the car on my way to the shops, and he said something that just made me smile ear to ear. He said that in life, we are like a candle in the middle of a room. Sometimes lit (happy), and sometimes we are not lit at all (unhappy). So it is very important to the room that the candle be lit, so it is light. But when you realise who you truly are, and you abide in the self completely (enlightened), it opens the curtains and floods the room with light, so whether the candle is lit or not makes little difference, because there is light everywhere. The candle can be lit or not, and it just does not matter. Nothing matters.

I find that so beautiful. I admit that i still have things to do. I have some blockages to remove before i can be truly free of myself, and just flow through life with love, peace, and serenity; but there is no way i can say that there are never times when i feel so full of love that it makes me want to cry. I know truly that i have had many Satori experiences. For those unfamiliar with Satori, it is an eastern expression for little sudden glimpses of enlightenment, tasters if you will. And they are just pure bliss, love and beauty.

I had one last night. Not long after my good, good friend announced that his wife is pregnant with a little girl. It filled me with joy, and i hugged them both so hard because something spoke to my heart in that moment and without words assured me that life is truly okay, and we are all safe from whatever we think will hurt us. Because nothing can. We are perfect; invincible.

I have had such an amazing weekend. Perhaps one of the best ever. And i hope everyone else has too, including you. I love you so much. Know this, for it is true.

Namaste.

The awakening......

I intend to use this blog to document my travels on what i can only describe as a spiritual path. I am going through the lessons contained within A Course Of Miracles, and you can to by either buying the book from most bookstores, or reading it online at http://www.iamacim.com. The site is hosted by a great guy named Devan, who also has a podcast in which he reads out and discusses each one of the 365 lessons daily, and invites people to chat with him live as he does so. Search ACIM on itunes to listen, or poke around the aforementioned site for more information.

But anyway, i find it helps somewhat to write stuff down and put it out there to the world, hence this blog, that i am so grateful for.

Today has been a good day. I couldn't possibly express the feelings i have gone through today, needless to say they have all ben somewhat positive. I have had glimses of peace and serenity which have put a smile on my face, and have hopefully affected those around me in a good way.

For some reason, i find it difficult to tell people close to me about this journey i am undertaking; which is why this blog will be kept from them for the time being. I know soon i would love them to read this.

I intend to do half an hour's meditation tonight, using my holosync audio. I don't meditate as much as i should. Well, as much as i want to anyway, as i know that there is no correct way to do this other than the way that you actually do it. That is the perfect way. Why strive for something that cannot be reached? Why regret something that has happened, when it has already happened and manifested itself in that way? Is that not making more problems for your self? Accept what is, and alter your behaviour accordingly. It is a beautiful thing to do.

Well, i must be getting back to work real soon, so i will leave this as it is until i find myself with enough free time to write again.

Whoever you are who is reading this, i love you. Have a wonderful day.